May 11, 2016 Wednesday, private session for 2 people
Aaron incorporates during a conversation we three were having.
Aaron: Barbara, Q1 and Q2 were talking about how we can purify karma for ourselves and for others in a lifetime. There was a being that I was 2,000 years ago, not the lifetime in which I knew Jeshua but a later lifetime. There was very little care for lepers in those days. I was experienced in healing, and I went from one leper colony to another trying to help people.
It’s a contagious disease. I knew I might pick it up. I had the skills not to pick it up. I understood how to create a shielding to it in my body. I had to weigh very carefully: which is of more benefit, to be the one who comes back here year after year and doesn’t get leprosy but takes care of the people and is able to continue taking care of the people, or to the be the one who does catch leprosy and suffers it with them, and helps them learn how to live with it? Still helping them to heal, as I helped myself to heal.
I would not say I consciously stated, “Okay, give me leprosy.” Only, I stopped using the practices which would cleanse me regularly of the disease, in part just because I was so busy and they took so much time. In part because I perceived that my attempt not to catch leprosy was based a little bit in fear.
So I contracted leprosy. This was perhaps 10 years into this healing work. Up until then, people regarded me as an outsider, someone who came and helped them, and they were in a sense dependent on me. “Oh, he is here. The healer is here. Maybe he can help us do this, do that.” But when I first appeared with leprosy, it was a totally different picture. They brought me into the center of their group. They loved me. They helped me treat the sores– not that I needed their help, but the love behind it was helpful.
I was able to keep the progression very slow and to teach many people how I kept it slow, so that people with leprosy who would have moved into a much more painful stage of the disease did not move into it. But I could not have convinced them that it worked if I did not have leprosy. It was them seeing me unchanging, that there were sores but they were not developing quickly, not deepening. There was not the rotting of tissues, as usually happens. If I can do it, you can do it. And teaching them, I learned and became much clearer.
The second part of this story is that at some level I was clearing my own karma, and also taking on some of their karma and clearing it. I did not begin this with the intention, “Oh, *I* will clear their karma.” There was simply the intention, “I will take whatever comes to me. I will hold it. I will purify as best I can. I will release it.” But because I was willing to do this, it did purify my own karma. I won’t go into details here about what that karma was. But it did purify my karma and purify other people’s karma. Some of those people became healers, and also were able to take some of the group karma into themselves and release it.
At no point was this a conscious, “I will do this.” It simply evolved out of the intention: Do no harm. Do only good. Do good for all beings. The two of you, and Barbara also, don’t see this in yourselves. You are doing this. Your sanghas, your friends, all the people who are in contact with you, through what you are doing you are helping them to heal and to release some of their karma. Not specifically with a disease like leprosy, but in various ways. To find the courage– I know that both of you have found the courage to live with your challenges, as Barbara has lived with through the years, not to come to a, “Oh poor me, I’m deaf.” She could have done that very easily, and lived a life in a hole. But no.
People need models like this. And Barbara did not say, “I will do this to show off something to people.” Only, “This is the only way I can live.” This is the only wayyou can live, and the only wayyou can live (indicating Q1 and Q 2) . So have some trust that you are both releasing karma in yourselves and in others in the world. You are serving as models for others.
It’s easy to be on top of the world when there’s no obstacle. But when there are obstacles, it’s very strengthening for people, it really helps people. How do we live with these human bodies and emotions?
That is all.
Q (with an ongoing physical ailment)asks, by what I’m saying, do I mean, does one not continue to work toward healing? Yes, of course one continues to work. But, let’s say that you have ten starving people in front of you, and you have a little bit of food that you’ve grown. If you divide the food in ten parts, you can just barely keep the ten alive, but youcan keep the ten alive. Or, you can say, “Okay, five will die, and I can feed five of them better.” Or, “Eight will die, and I can feed two very well.” How can you let any one die when you can prevent it? If you were to put all of your energy and direction into healing the body, I have no doubt that you could do it, and fairly quickly. When I say quickly, within a year or so. But this is not your primary purpose. This is one of your purposes. You need to keep feeding all of the purposes, to be true to yourself.
So you offer the energy and intention toward healing, knowing: this, I can do this. Let me offer Barbara as an example. She could do 3, 4, 5 even 6 hours of physical therapy and swimming and Feldenkrais and other such work each day, and completely ignore the dharma teaching. She does not choose to do that. So she divides her energy, knowing, “This is my intention.”
There are two parts to this. On the ultimate level, the ever perfect body is already there. You’re not healing yourself, you’re opening to that ever perfect body. But then if certain other areas are important to you, like learning about human grief and letting go, learning that you are truly not alone at the deepest level, well, this illness serves as a catalyst to lead you into those beliefs so you can release them. If you completely healed the body, what new catalyst are you going to find? Is it to be equally painful? Maybe just stick with this catalyst and continue the work toward physical healing while you simultaneously continue to do the work toward the other healing, for yourself and for others.
Everyone in the world is a mirror, mirroring back to, as you mirror yourself to them. What do you choose to mirror to people? Both of you are choosing to mirror the whole self even though there is ailment. You are not mirroring the broken self. This is vital for other people. It’s an enormous gift. I’m saying more because Barbara will read the transcript: Barbara does the same thing. There is a truth that there are ailments, things are “broken.” There is also the deeper truth you are whole. What do you choose to mirror out to the world?
I have observed for Barbara that there are people who are not ready to let go of their belief in their own brokenness. Part of the reason they have turned from Barbara and Deep Spring Center is that she’s a reminder to them, wake up! Be the fullness and the wholeness that you are, not the brokenness. And I have no doubt this is true for both of you. What do you choose to reflect out? But it will terrify some people.
Aaron: We are talking about energy, not my energy but THE energy. The well is never-ending. It’s constantly replenishing itself from the deepest waters of the earth. Dip into it when you have the need. You are afraid that if you dip into it, you’ll take away from others. This fear is part of your karma, to understand the unlimitedness of Source. But of course you won’t take from others, because the well is infinite. So please partake more fully of that well, nourishing yourself with love, with light, with energy. Will you try that?
Q: Can you give me some specific guidance?
Aaron: Yes. When you’re feeling depleted, tired, when mind is spinning with tasks you “should” get done, when you’re working with your 50%(her medical doctor has advised her to do 50& of what she was doing) but you’re feeling, “I need to do more,” I’d like you to take time out. In this season, go out to your garden. Just sit and look at the flowers and trees, lie on your back and look up at the sky, arms stretched out. “Thank you! Thank you for the beautiful energy of the universe. I am love. I draw this into me and let it fill me.” Watch any image that comes to mind: “If I take some, somebody else will go without.” That is an ancient belief of yours. I don’t think it’s a completely conscious belief.
Picture yourself beside a stream of pure water flowing from a spring. You are drinking when somebody comes and drinks beside you. Fine. Then you notice there are ten people, a hundred people, a thousand people. “I better get out of here so somebody else can drink.” Can you see that thought arise? This stream has a million-mile bank. There’s plenty of place for everybody to drink. You not drinking does not help others. You not drinking only dehydrates you. Do you understand?
You as yet have no idea where you are headed. I cannot promise you it will always be comfortable or easy, only that it will be good, and it will serve your deepest intention of service for the highest good to all beings and harm to none; a way of truly sharing love and light and wisdom in the world. Trust your path.
And yes, it may be challenging. Challenge is not a problem. You would not have come into human body if you were afraid of challenge.